In case anybody ends up here (???), I have started a new blog called "shazza's lapband journey" so feel free to check it out.
Sharon
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Sunday, August 1, 2010
NEW BOOK!!!
Well, here I go again!!! TOWN really was NOT for me, and I really thought it might of been the missing link - NOT!! For one thing I think I was the youngest there (in fact I am pretty sure) with the average age being about 65 (and I am not kidding). Nobody was really obese at all, and it was mainly used as a social gathering so I really did feel out of it. The premise works and I do like that but I need some sort of incentive and I also need to get something out of the meetings otherwise I am wasting my night when I could be at home with my family. So, all in all, I went twice and that was it. SORRY TOWN.....
So, yet again I was on the lookout for my next venture. Surely there is something out there that I haven't tried yet. Well, low and behold I came across The Gabriel Method - a book that honestly I have seen over the last year but just thought (for some reason) that it was another protein diet and never did get it. So, I looked into it further and found that it was far from it. I downloaded the visualisation technique and started listening straight away. I also found podcasts on itunes (free also) and have been listening to him and I must say I am impressed.
His theory is that every time you diet it gets harder and harder to stay thin as your body is going into starvation mode. He himself got as high as 186kilos and he says he dieting his way to that weight. I can totally relate to that. He is now like 90kilos and looks amazing. I like the fact that he can relate to obese people as he has been there and he totally believes that dieting does not work - haleluya, somebody I can really relate to.
So, here goes my not dieting diet. And I know I have gone down that track and put on heaps but with his visualisation techniques as well as adding foods like omega 3, digestive enzymes and live foods (rather than take food away) I think this just may be the different no-diet I have been looking for.
No more counting calories, points, fat grams, carb grams - just eat when I am hungry and stop when I am full.
My weight today is 115.5kg (OMG) and my goal weight is 70kilos. If this doesn't work then lapband is my next option.
Shaz
So, yet again I was on the lookout for my next venture. Surely there is something out there that I haven't tried yet. Well, low and behold I came across The Gabriel Method - a book that honestly I have seen over the last year but just thought (for some reason) that it was another protein diet and never did get it. So, I looked into it further and found that it was far from it. I downloaded the visualisation technique and started listening straight away. I also found podcasts on itunes (free also) and have been listening to him and I must say I am impressed.
His theory is that every time you diet it gets harder and harder to stay thin as your body is going into starvation mode. He himself got as high as 186kilos and he says he dieting his way to that weight. I can totally relate to that. He is now like 90kilos and looks amazing. I like the fact that he can relate to obese people as he has been there and he totally believes that dieting does not work - haleluya, somebody I can really relate to.
So, here goes my not dieting diet. And I know I have gone down that track and put on heaps but with his visualisation techniques as well as adding foods like omega 3, digestive enzymes and live foods (rather than take food away) I think this just may be the different no-diet I have been looking for.
No more counting calories, points, fat grams, carb grams - just eat when I am hungry and stop when I am full.
My weight today is 115.5kg (OMG) and my goal weight is 70kilos. If this doesn't work then lapband is my next option.
Shaz
Monday, June 14, 2010
TOWN TONIGHT
Well, tonight I joined T.O.W.N. For those that don't know that stands for Take Off Weight Naturally.
Starting weight 114.8kg. Boy, where did that come from??? Anyway, like they said tonight I will NEVER see that weight again cause I WILL lose this weight. My goal weight (at the moment) is 75kg so I do have a bit to go.
They don't really tell you what to eat, just go by healthy eating guidelines but have suggested using a calorie counter and trying 1500 per day to start with. That is quite a bit lower than I am used to so I shall see how I cope, I may have to go back up to 1800 as that is definately more livable but we will see. That is what they have suggested so that is what I am going to start doing.
I have to write down (usual stuff), everything I eat and work out the calories and I am to take that next week to be looked at (keeps me honest anyway). Also, I will be getting a sash next week which I think is used to put any buttons/medals etc on if I lose any weight.
I am really looking forward to this new beginning. It is not weight watchers again, nor is it something else I have done in the past either like Jenny Craig, Lite n
Easy or Nutrisystem - one of the many many I have tried. This will be new, I have never done town before and really have no idea what to expect - WHICH IS GOOD>..
So here goes everybody, I am ready and willing.
Shaz
Starting weight 114.8kg. Boy, where did that come from??? Anyway, like they said tonight I will NEVER see that weight again cause I WILL lose this weight. My goal weight (at the moment) is 75kg so I do have a bit to go.
They don't really tell you what to eat, just go by healthy eating guidelines but have suggested using a calorie counter and trying 1500 per day to start with. That is quite a bit lower than I am used to so I shall see how I cope, I may have to go back up to 1800 as that is definately more livable but we will see. That is what they have suggested so that is what I am going to start doing.
I have to write down (usual stuff), everything I eat and work out the calories and I am to take that next week to be looked at (keeps me honest anyway). Also, I will be getting a sash next week which I think is used to put any buttons/medals etc on if I lose any weight.
I am really looking forward to this new beginning. It is not weight watchers again, nor is it something else I have done in the past either like Jenny Craig, Lite n
Easy or Nutrisystem - one of the many many I have tried. This will be new, I have never done town before and really have no idea what to expect - WHICH IS GOOD>..
So here goes everybody, I am ready and willing.
Shaz
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Is it really June???
I feel so sad reading my previous posts. In fact it has brought tears to my eyes. What is the damn answer to losing weight, why can't I lose my weight, what is holding me back, what is the answer!!! I am really really at a loss on what to do next. I have tried EVERYTHING, I just don't seem to get anywhere with any of it. Yes hypnosis made me feel good about myself (temporarily anyway) BUT, I did not lose any weight. My weight is now 114.6 - yep. Damn heavier than when I started this blog 2 years ago. How depressing. In my previoius posts I was determined not to be fat and fifty. Well guess what - looks like I will definately be that as there is only 3 months left and I am heavier than when I started. Is that for real or what??? Talk about frustrating. What is the answer everybody??? If it was as easy as counting caloires/points/fat grams/whatever then I should have gotten to my goal weight 15 years ago. I have now officially tried everything.
I have gone through a few of my old books, as I want to try and concentrate on health now rather than weight loss (cause that aint gonna happen!!). I figure if I at least concentre on the healthy aspect of food choices then my insides should be happy even if my outside doesn't look it!! So, anyway, I found one of Dr Cabot's books on my bookshelf and reread it. It is the livercleansing diet. She says that if you have a fatty liver then the only way you are gonna lose weight is if you fix your liver up first. Once you have removed the fat from your liver then your metabolism will be what it once was. Now I do remember when I got this book I only did it for a week cause you couldn't have any milk, cheese or dairy. I found it (at the time) very hard to stick to cause I just hate the taste of soy milk arggghhh.
Anyway, as I am now a bit more desperate than I was when I tried it last time, I went shopping and got rice milk and lite soy milk. There is a lot more variety now which is good. I had some soy milk in my cereal and low and behold it is actually nice now. I think I might be able to do this diet. I might be able to fix my fatty liver (which I have been told I have by a number of naturapaths) and then I can start losing weight.
Dr Cabot says if it is really bad (which surely mine must be), then it could be 3-12 months before I start losing weight but it is what is happening on the inside that I need to concentrate on.
So there you go guys - livercleansing is on!!
BTW I have also joined Contours gym which is really close by and again only doing it for health. I know in the past I have stopped going to gyms if I haven't lost weight within 3 months or so and figure it aint working. I am no longer going to think that way - this is now for life. I am getting too old to be starting to piss fart around with my health. Even if I stay fat if I know my insides are healthy then I could still have a long and happy life.
Heres to the liver!!
I have gone through a few of my old books, as I want to try and concentrate on health now rather than weight loss (cause that aint gonna happen!!). I figure if I at least concentre on the healthy aspect of food choices then my insides should be happy even if my outside doesn't look it!! So, anyway, I found one of Dr Cabot's books on my bookshelf and reread it. It is the livercleansing diet. She says that if you have a fatty liver then the only way you are gonna lose weight is if you fix your liver up first. Once you have removed the fat from your liver then your metabolism will be what it once was. Now I do remember when I got this book I only did it for a week cause you couldn't have any milk, cheese or dairy. I found it (at the time) very hard to stick to cause I just hate the taste of soy milk arggghhh.
Anyway, as I am now a bit more desperate than I was when I tried it last time, I went shopping and got rice milk and lite soy milk. There is a lot more variety now which is good. I had some soy milk in my cereal and low and behold it is actually nice now. I think I might be able to do this diet. I might be able to fix my fatty liver (which I have been told I have by a number of naturapaths) and then I can start losing weight.
Dr Cabot says if it is really bad (which surely mine must be), then it could be 3-12 months before I start losing weight but it is what is happening on the inside that I need to concentrate on.
So there you go guys - livercleansing is on!!
BTW I have also joined Contours gym which is really close by and again only doing it for health. I know in the past I have stopped going to gyms if I haven't lost weight within 3 months or so and figure it aint working. I am no longer going to think that way - this is now for life. I am getting too old to be starting to piss fart around with my health. Even if I stay fat if I know my insides are healthy then I could still have a long and happy life.
Heres to the liver!!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
New Year, New Me
Can't believe it is already the 7th January. Where does the time go??? What's really different about this New Year than any others is that I haven't given myself resolutions and expectations about what I will do for the new year, ie exercise more, eat less, eat healthy, walk more etc etc. I normally make myself a list every New Year and try my best to stick to it. You know what, that has happened for about the last 25 years and here I am, fatter than ever. Derrrrr, why has it taken me this long to figure out it aint working. As Dr Phil says, if it aint working for ya, then change what you are doing.
Well, I definitely have changed and it doesn't mean change my diet plan or exercise plan, like it normally would. I always figured it was me not the diet that was the problem - now I know different!! I also can't believe I have not weighed myself in about 3 months - wow, unbelievable. I feel great, I really really do. You gotta try this guys, it is life changing.
I am positive I haven't gained weight either cause my clothes fit just the same - not looser, not tighter. I'm happy with that for the time being. I know weightloss will happen but my body has to recover from the 25 years of dieting and binge eating, over and over again.
I have noticed over the last month that I can look at chocolate now, or cake, or pizza, fish n chips, you name it and not start salivating or thinking that I HAVE to have it. I know I can have it if I want it but I can ask myself the question - do I want it now? Am I hungry for that now? Is there something else I feel like? And I have turned my back on some of those foods and not thought twice about it - that is definitely a first for me.
I am slowly (not quite there) starting to love myself and this body that I have made. I appreciate my body for what it has done for me all these years and put up with the abuse I have given it and the crap that has gone down my mouth - it makes me sad! Diets have done this to me! For that I am sure.
I vow, from this day forward (well actually from 3 months ago) that I shall NEVER, EVER, EVER go on another weightloss diet again. If I stay the weight I am then so be it, I am not dieting again. Wheww, that really takes a load off my mind and by the way, I haven't binged either or felt the need to.
This is going to be a slow process, I know that. But I have to now think of the future, my future and how I want to live. I do not want to live counting calories or points or carbs or whatever, I just am OVER IT!!
So here is to 2010 and may it be everything I wish it to be and the same for anybody else who may be reading this. HAPPY NEW YEAR...
Sharon
Well, I definitely have changed and it doesn't mean change my diet plan or exercise plan, like it normally would. I always figured it was me not the diet that was the problem - now I know different!! I also can't believe I have not weighed myself in about 3 months - wow, unbelievable. I feel great, I really really do. You gotta try this guys, it is life changing.
I am positive I haven't gained weight either cause my clothes fit just the same - not looser, not tighter. I'm happy with that for the time being. I know weightloss will happen but my body has to recover from the 25 years of dieting and binge eating, over and over again.
I have noticed over the last month that I can look at chocolate now, or cake, or pizza, fish n chips, you name it and not start salivating or thinking that I HAVE to have it. I know I can have it if I want it but I can ask myself the question - do I want it now? Am I hungry for that now? Is there something else I feel like? And I have turned my back on some of those foods and not thought twice about it - that is definitely a first for me.
I am slowly (not quite there) starting to love myself and this body that I have made. I appreciate my body for what it has done for me all these years and put up with the abuse I have given it and the crap that has gone down my mouth - it makes me sad! Diets have done this to me! For that I am sure.
I vow, from this day forward (well actually from 3 months ago) that I shall NEVER, EVER, EVER go on another weightloss diet again. If I stay the weight I am then so be it, I am not dieting again. Wheww, that really takes a load off my mind and by the way, I haven't binged either or felt the need to.
This is going to be a slow process, I know that. But I have to now think of the future, my future and how I want to live. I do not want to live counting calories or points or carbs or whatever, I just am OVER IT!!
So here is to 2010 and may it be everything I wish it to be and the same for anybody else who may be reading this. HAPPY NEW YEAR...
Sharon
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Update
Know it has been a longggg longgg time since I last posted and I have sort of gone through a metamorphisis over that period of time. I have come to realise that I need to stop dieting, FOREVER!! It only feeds my eating disorder (compulsive overeating and bulimia) and thanks to hypnoslim counselling I am now getting help.
Since my last blog entry I tried another stint (maybe even twice) at Weight Watchers. Why oh why did I keep going back to WW??? I don't know but I always felt that it was the healthiest way to go and it was always my fault that I didn't stick to it, nothing to do with the dieting merry go round that it continued to put me on. I did realise that when on a diet I started to binge eat again and become obsessed with food, weight, what I look like. I became a mad woman who hated myself more and more every day for not sticking to "the diet" or going over my points - whatever. I had a really low point at one stage cause I realised yet again that this was not working for me. Then I spent a fortune on Tony Ferguson shakes and was determined to stick to it as I was becoming a bit panicky at the thought of still being fat when I went on my cruise in February (this was about September). Of course, it made my ED (eating disorder) even worse yet again and was getting really depressed about the whole thing. WHY COULDN'T I LOSE THE WEIGHT!!!!
Anyway, I lost practically NOTHING.... and realised I needed to change something. Dieting wasn't working for me anymore. I am 49 now and need to look at the long term picture and start to love myself. A girl a work told me about a counsellor who also does clinical hypnotherapy to work out WHY we eat and uses hypnotherapy to help heal yourself. Well my first visit was about 2 months ago (31st October) and I have not looked back........
I have been every fortnight since and have been hypnotised in every session. I realised that alot of my eating stems from my childhood and my father (now deceased).. What I like is that once we figure on an issue, I get hypnotised and go back in time to fix it (change the outcome) and then its forgotten, we move on. I don't dwell on it anymore. I know I haven't lost any weight yet (scales were thrown out after the first visit) but I feel so much better about myself. I am no longer panicked about being overweight on the cruise, I bought myself some nice clothes that I feel sexy in and my attitude has done a 360. I can look in the mirror and feel proud of myself and love myself, sooooooo goood to be like that rather than hate myself and put myself down left, right and centre.
I feel such relief in knowing that I never have to diet again, EVER and don't have to think about points, grams, carbs, fats, calories.... just eat food for the taste and whether or not it is what I feel like eating at the time. I love it. Why didn't I do this years ago..... Well, the answer to that is probably because I needed to go through what I went through to get to a low point before I would consider anything like this.
Anyway, shall keep everybody posted on how it goes.....
shaz
Since my last blog entry I tried another stint (maybe even twice) at Weight Watchers. Why oh why did I keep going back to WW??? I don't know but I always felt that it was the healthiest way to go and it was always my fault that I didn't stick to it, nothing to do with the dieting merry go round that it continued to put me on. I did realise that when on a diet I started to binge eat again and become obsessed with food, weight, what I look like. I became a mad woman who hated myself more and more every day for not sticking to "the diet" or going over my points - whatever. I had a really low point at one stage cause I realised yet again that this was not working for me. Then I spent a fortune on Tony Ferguson shakes and was determined to stick to it as I was becoming a bit panicky at the thought of still being fat when I went on my cruise in February (this was about September). Of course, it made my ED (eating disorder) even worse yet again and was getting really depressed about the whole thing. WHY COULDN'T I LOSE THE WEIGHT!!!!
Anyway, I lost practically NOTHING.... and realised I needed to change something. Dieting wasn't working for me anymore. I am 49 now and need to look at the long term picture and start to love myself. A girl a work told me about a counsellor who also does clinical hypnotherapy to work out WHY we eat and uses hypnotherapy to help heal yourself. Well my first visit was about 2 months ago (31st October) and I have not looked back........
I have been every fortnight since and have been hypnotised in every session. I realised that alot of my eating stems from my childhood and my father (now deceased).. What I like is that once we figure on an issue, I get hypnotised and go back in time to fix it (change the outcome) and then its forgotten, we move on. I don't dwell on it anymore. I know I haven't lost any weight yet (scales were thrown out after the first visit) but I feel so much better about myself. I am no longer panicked about being overweight on the cruise, I bought myself some nice clothes that I feel sexy in and my attitude has done a 360. I can look in the mirror and feel proud of myself and love myself, sooooooo goood to be like that rather than hate myself and put myself down left, right and centre.
I feel such relief in knowing that I never have to diet again, EVER and don't have to think about points, grams, carbs, fats, calories.... just eat food for the taste and whether or not it is what I feel like eating at the time. I love it. Why didn't I do this years ago..... Well, the answer to that is probably because I needed to go through what I went through to get to a low point before I would consider anything like this.
Anyway, shall keep everybody posted on how it goes.....
shaz
Thursday, April 2, 2009
LOVING WW
Well up to week 5 and my total weightloss to date is 4.1kgs. Can't complain with that. I have worked out how long I have before my 50th in September 2010 and on the 13th March it was exactly 18 months away. I have calculated that I need to lose 2.3kgs a month (ie on the 13th of every month I want to be 2.3kgs lighter than the month before to stay on track) to get to my goal of 70kgs on my 50th birthday. I reckon that is doable and hopefully I can be ahead of schedule so when I do plateau in later months I have something to fall back on!
I also know in my head that I don't have any other chances now. This is it. If I don't stay with WW this time I know it is just gonna be too hard to still get to 50 and not fat. I know without a shadow of a doubt that this is gonna be it. I know it and I can feel it. I feel different somehow knowing that I can't give up in the hope of finding something better out there. I know weight watchers works, I know it and I have always known it. This is why I always go back to weight watchers. Why did I ever think I could try something else. Why, oh why>>>>>>
But another thing I aint gonna do this time and that is moan about my past. I remember making an oath to myself that the past is gone and forgotten. This is now. This is the present and I no longer think of the past and all my past weight watchers attempts, not to mention all the other damn diets and shakes that I have tried in the last 20 years. It is comforting to know that I will be sticking with weight watchers for the long haul. I have a totally different mindset - which is good and I can feel the difference.
So that is my weightloss to date and I am proud of myself for that. My husband is proud as well and I think he can see a difference in my attitude this time. He has told me all along to stay with one thing and that it might take a couple of years and not to expect it all in a month. Of course, I never listened to him what does he know he's been skinny his whole life and eats what he likes. But you know, he was right and I wished I had listened before. Well, I am listening now honey and here I come....
We will have been married for 27 years this month and I have booked a weekend away at the gorgeous cabin in the Dandenongs. Can't wait. Kids are old enough to stay on their own now (21 and 18) and I aint even gonna think about the parties that might be happening. Wow 27 years with the same man and I love him more than ever. I also feel he loves me just as much. We were meant for each other. I always felt that which is why we married so young. When you know you are meant to be together for ever then why hang off. That's what I reckon anyway and if I had my time again I will marry young (to only you though Wayne).
Anyway, the reason I have actually got the time to write in my blog is because I have had the last 2 days off work due to one side of my face aching. And I mean aching. Have made an appointment at the doctors tomorrow if it is still sore cause now I am getting a bit worried it might be something serious. I never get migraines and I never have sinus problems. I have been to the dentist with no problems so really don't know what it could be. My whole right side of my head and face just kills. Even my right eyeball. Aspro clear helps a little bit but it is still there and I can feel it.
Well will see tomorrow if it is any better.
Shaz
I also know in my head that I don't have any other chances now. This is it. If I don't stay with WW this time I know it is just gonna be too hard to still get to 50 and not fat. I know without a shadow of a doubt that this is gonna be it. I know it and I can feel it. I feel different somehow knowing that I can't give up in the hope of finding something better out there. I know weight watchers works, I know it and I have always known it. This is why I always go back to weight watchers. Why did I ever think I could try something else. Why, oh why>>>>>>
But another thing I aint gonna do this time and that is moan about my past. I remember making an oath to myself that the past is gone and forgotten. This is now. This is the present and I no longer think of the past and all my past weight watchers attempts, not to mention all the other damn diets and shakes that I have tried in the last 20 years. It is comforting to know that I will be sticking with weight watchers for the long haul. I have a totally different mindset - which is good and I can feel the difference.
So that is my weightloss to date and I am proud of myself for that. My husband is proud as well and I think he can see a difference in my attitude this time. He has told me all along to stay with one thing and that it might take a couple of years and not to expect it all in a month. Of course, I never listened to him what does he know he's been skinny his whole life and eats what he likes. But you know, he was right and I wished I had listened before. Well, I am listening now honey and here I come....
We will have been married for 27 years this month and I have booked a weekend away at the gorgeous cabin in the Dandenongs. Can't wait. Kids are old enough to stay on their own now (21 and 18) and I aint even gonna think about the parties that might be happening. Wow 27 years with the same man and I love him more than ever. I also feel he loves me just as much. We were meant for each other. I always felt that which is why we married so young. When you know you are meant to be together for ever then why hang off. That's what I reckon anyway and if I had my time again I will marry young (to only you though Wayne).
Anyway, the reason I have actually got the time to write in my blog is because I have had the last 2 days off work due to one side of my face aching. And I mean aching. Have made an appointment at the doctors tomorrow if it is still sore cause now I am getting a bit worried it might be something serious. I never get migraines and I never have sinus problems. I have been to the dentist with no problems so really don't know what it could be. My whole right side of my head and face just kills. Even my right eyeball. Aspro clear helps a little bit but it is still there and I can feel it.
Well will see tomorrow if it is any better.
Shaz
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Yeee, long weekend
Feeling good about having an extra long weekend as I had Friday off (RDO) and will also have Monday Off (Pub Hol). Had my brother and his girlfriend over for dinner Friday night and as they are also doing WW, I tried to make the lowest point dinner ever. I think I actually managed it. Here's what I had:
Asparagus Dip with crudites (from Dazey Dee recipes) - 0 points
Asian Style Soup (from WW website) - 0 points
Chicken Lettuce thingies (from WW website) - 3 points
Curried Beef and steamed rice (WW book) - 6 points
Dessert from this month's WW mag with yoghurt - 3 points
So, I managed to have a 5 course meal for only 12 points and as I deliberately didn't eat much during the day I still was under points.
Mind you, it didn't help much with weigh in on Saturday cause I put on 200 grams. Can't understand why when I stayed under points all week and didn't use my bonus points either. Figuring it might be that I just had a heap of food from the night before in my stomach??? Don't know and don't care cause I know I had a great week food wise and I am determined not to let the scales get to me this time. It has always been my downfall in the past cause I just want to be perfect and lose the recommended half to one kilo a week and when I don't I feel like a failure. Well I am NOT going to do that this time. I figured had a kept going all the other times I joined WW and stopped cause I had put on weight for a week and didn't want to go and embarass myself at weighin, I would have been at my goal weight for the last damn 5 years by now. So, as I want this to be the very last time I go to WW, this time is going to be different.
Did I tell you I ripped up all my previous WW books and journals on the day I joined WW 2 weeks ago? Well I did, cause I don't want to think about the previous times I had joined and failed. As far as I am concerned I don't have a past of failing so I can't think "here I go again".....
Still, I have lost 2.4 kilos in 2 weeks so I am pleased with that.
Went to physio this week about my ankle and lump under my foot. He has given me exercises to do and said I have a heap of old scarring on my ankle that he is going to try and get ride of with his "laser". I just desperately want to go back to Fernwood cause it has now been over 2 months and I really need exercise. I am hoping within the next 2 weeks I will be able to get back into the swing of things. I miss Body Pump.....
Till next time,
Shaz
Asparagus Dip with crudites (from Dazey Dee recipes) - 0 points
Asian Style Soup (from WW website) - 0 points
Chicken Lettuce thingies (from WW website) - 3 points
Curried Beef and steamed rice (WW book) - 6 points
Dessert from this month's WW mag with yoghurt - 3 points
So, I managed to have a 5 course meal for only 12 points and as I deliberately didn't eat much during the day I still was under points.
Mind you, it didn't help much with weigh in on Saturday cause I put on 200 grams. Can't understand why when I stayed under points all week and didn't use my bonus points either. Figuring it might be that I just had a heap of food from the night before in my stomach??? Don't know and don't care cause I know I had a great week food wise and I am determined not to let the scales get to me this time. It has always been my downfall in the past cause I just want to be perfect and lose the recommended half to one kilo a week and when I don't I feel like a failure. Well I am NOT going to do that this time. I figured had a kept going all the other times I joined WW and stopped cause I had put on weight for a week and didn't want to go and embarass myself at weighin, I would have been at my goal weight for the last damn 5 years by now. So, as I want this to be the very last time I go to WW, this time is going to be different.
Did I tell you I ripped up all my previous WW books and journals on the day I joined WW 2 weeks ago? Well I did, cause I don't want to think about the previous times I had joined and failed. As far as I am concerned I don't have a past of failing so I can't think "here I go again".....
Still, I have lost 2.4 kilos in 2 weeks so I am pleased with that.
Went to physio this week about my ankle and lump under my foot. He has given me exercises to do and said I have a heap of old scarring on my ankle that he is going to try and get ride of with his "laser". I just desperately want to go back to Fernwood cause it has now been over 2 months and I really need exercise. I am hoping within the next 2 weeks I will be able to get back into the swing of things. I miss Body Pump.....
Till next time,
Shaz
Monday, February 23, 2009
On Track
Well so far so good. Have been tracking for 2 days now and both days I have been below points. In fact yesterday after dinner I still had 10 points left which was good cause the rest of the family were having a Sara Lee Apple Crumble with cream. I looked up the points and boy it sure is high so I weighed out 100gms and counted that as 6 points. Then I looked up the points for Pura Thickened Cream and thought no way am I gonna waste 2 points on only 1 tablespoon of cream so luckily I had some custard in the fridge still so had half a cup of that for 1.5 points. Still went under points for the day and still stayed very satisfied. Quite happy with yesterday food wise.
Today, I had a bigger breaky than usual as I not only had cereal with milk, I added a banana (unheard of) and also had a wholemeal crumpet with WW jam on it. And I can honestly say I was not hungry again until lunchtime. Rest of the day worked out fine. I really don't mind looking up points values in my book and adding it to my journal - well so far anyway.
Because I know this is definitely the last damn time I am gonna try losing weight, I know I have to give it my all. I will be trying my hardest not to binge, not to overeat, and not to eat when I am not hungry. Oh yeh, I even took a cut up carrot and cucumber to work for arvo tea. My workmate asked me if I was for real and I said "sure am".
So that was my day. Can't wait till saturday to weigh......
Shaz
Today, I had a bigger breaky than usual as I not only had cereal with milk, I added a banana (unheard of) and also had a wholemeal crumpet with WW jam on it. And I can honestly say I was not hungry again until lunchtime. Rest of the day worked out fine. I really don't mind looking up points values in my book and adding it to my journal - well so far anyway.
Because I know this is definitely the last damn time I am gonna try losing weight, I know I have to give it my all. I will be trying my hardest not to binge, not to overeat, and not to eat when I am not hungry. Oh yeh, I even took a cut up carrot and cucumber to work for arvo tea. My workmate asked me if I was for real and I said "sure am".
So that was my day. Can't wait till saturday to weigh......
Shaz
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Joined Weight Watchers
Yes, it has been quite a few weeks since I have posted - and I admit I am a slackarse!! It is a little bit harder now that I am back at work but i bought a brand new laptop yesterday with a battery that actually works so I won't be stuck to the one powerpoint at home and I will be able to type up my daily post in bed if need be.....
Anyway, my last post crapped on about how great calorie king is, and yes I still think it is but after using it for a month (and losing and then putting back on) I decided that counting points is a whole lot damn easier. So,,,,, I have rejoined weight watchers yesterday (not gonna say how many times previously I have joined) and feel quite renewed and starting something totally new again.
At the get into my head that I am really starting new, I have ripped up and thrown out any previous diet books (ww included) and journals. I am no longer looking at the past and gonna look to the future from now on. I have always dwelled on how many times I have tried to lose weight in the past and think that I am still damn fat, which gets me to thinking that I will never lose weight and that starts me spiralling down a black hole! Well, this time it is different. WeightWatchers has a new program (Satisfaction) with all new books and stuff so as far as my mind is concerned - this is my first weight loss effort and it is gonna WORK....
Weighed in at 113.8kg and my first goal of 5% is to get to 108.2kg. That is doable and plan to get there by the end of a month (considering the first week is usually alot higher loss).
I am still paying for Fernwood so plan to go back there as soon as my ankle is better (rolled it over 6 weeks ago and it is still swollen and sore). I had my xray last week and know that it isn't broken - just inflamed still. Going to physio on Wednesday to see what he can do to help speed up the recovery. Now that I have joined WW I just want to start exercising as well.
My promise to myself is to stay tracking, keep exercising, and stick to this for the long term. All the other WW times, I last about 4 months and give up cause my weightloss slows down or stops and I hate going to get weighed if I haven't lost. This time I have spoken to the leader upfront and told her that is my history. She told me to look at this for life and not to get bogged down in the week to week weighins. She is damn right you know and I really, really know this is my last damn chance of health before I turn 50 (now only 19 months away) so I GOT TO STICK TO THIS....
Anyway, my last post crapped on about how great calorie king is, and yes I still think it is but after using it for a month (and losing and then putting back on) I decided that counting points is a whole lot damn easier. So,,,,, I have rejoined weight watchers yesterday (not gonna say how many times previously I have joined) and feel quite renewed and starting something totally new again.
At the get into my head that I am really starting new, I have ripped up and thrown out any previous diet books (ww included) and journals. I am no longer looking at the past and gonna look to the future from now on. I have always dwelled on how many times I have tried to lose weight in the past and think that I am still damn fat, which gets me to thinking that I will never lose weight and that starts me spiralling down a black hole! Well, this time it is different. WeightWatchers has a new program (Satisfaction) with all new books and stuff so as far as my mind is concerned - this is my first weight loss effort and it is gonna WORK....
Weighed in at 113.8kg and my first goal of 5% is to get to 108.2kg. That is doable and plan to get there by the end of a month (considering the first week is usually alot higher loss).
I am still paying for Fernwood so plan to go back there as soon as my ankle is better (rolled it over 6 weeks ago and it is still swollen and sore). I had my xray last week and know that it isn't broken - just inflamed still. Going to physio on Wednesday to see what he can do to help speed up the recovery. Now that I have joined WW I just want to start exercising as well.
My promise to myself is to stay tracking, keep exercising, and stick to this for the long term. All the other WW times, I last about 4 months and give up cause my weightloss slows down or stops and I hate going to get weighed if I haven't lost. This time I have spoken to the leader upfront and told her that is my history. She told me to look at this for life and not to get bogged down in the week to week weighins. She is damn right you know and I really, really know this is my last damn chance of health before I turn 50 (now only 19 months away) so I GOT TO STICK TO THIS....
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Going Great
Let's just say I just love the Calorie King website. It makes things sooooo much easier doesn't it? It works out not only the calories but also anything else I feel the need to calculate, like fibre, fat, carbs, protein - you name it! And all at the click of a button - just great.
Went to my brother's for dinner last night, as him and his girlfriend are following Weight Watchers at the moment and decided to do a WW dinner. It was okay cause as everything was very healthy and low fat I was easily able to add my calories into Calorie King when I got home. Anyway, even going out to dinner and drinking 2 glasses of wine I still was under my calorie allocation of 1710 for the day - how exciting is that! Normally, if I went out for dinner (whether to a friends or restaurant) that would have been the end of my diet for the day cause I would have eaten crap. We were big on the dips, chips, wine, cheese sort of dinners but last night the meal was as follows:
Zucchini Soup (no cream) with small wholemeal dinner roll (no butter)Thai Prawn Salad (absolutely the best)Crumbed chicken strips (no oil used) with roastsed (canola spray) mixed vegiesFresh Fruit platter (watermelon, pineapple, strawberries, grapes and cherries)
Probably doesn't look very appetizing cause there was no cream, no oil, no butter but believe me I was pleasantly surprised and how tasty and filling the whole meal was. I have now vowed to have them back to my place and try the same thing.
Thanks to Calorie King I can stay on top of everything and I have now just realised I can print out each day's diary which gives you a quick rundown on what your totals have been for the day and the end result (ie whether calories were under or over and how much by!!)
So anyway, my week so far (and it has only been 4 days) has been really good and I have stayed under my calorie allowance EVERY day (one day by 294) so am looking forward to my first weighin next Wednesday morning (fingers crossed).
I'm excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Went to my brother's for dinner last night, as him and his girlfriend are following Weight Watchers at the moment and decided to do a WW dinner. It was okay cause as everything was very healthy and low fat I was easily able to add my calories into Calorie King when I got home. Anyway, even going out to dinner and drinking 2 glasses of wine I still was under my calorie allocation of 1710 for the day - how exciting is that! Normally, if I went out for dinner (whether to a friends or restaurant) that would have been the end of my diet for the day cause I would have eaten crap. We were big on the dips, chips, wine, cheese sort of dinners but last night the meal was as follows:
Zucchini Soup (no cream) with small wholemeal dinner roll (no butter)Thai Prawn Salad (absolutely the best)Crumbed chicken strips (no oil used) with roastsed (canola spray) mixed vegiesFresh Fruit platter (watermelon, pineapple, strawberries, grapes and cherries)
Probably doesn't look very appetizing cause there was no cream, no oil, no butter but believe me I was pleasantly surprised and how tasty and filling the whole meal was. I have now vowed to have them back to my place and try the same thing.
Thanks to Calorie King I can stay on top of everything and I have now just realised I can print out each day's diary which gives you a quick rundown on what your totals have been for the day and the end result (ie whether calories were under or over and how much by!!)
So anyway, my week so far (and it has only been 4 days) has been really good and I have stayed under my calorie allowance EVERY day (one day by 294) so am looking forward to my first weighin next Wednesday morning (fingers crossed).
I'm excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
New Start
Well I have a new blog name (new year, new me) as I am starting (again) this weight loss journey. It is yet closer again to that dreaded 50 (Sep 2010) so I know that this time has to be the VERY last time if I am to be 50 and at goal. I did this when I stopped smoking as I was not going to be 40 and a smoker and here I am 10 years later and still not smoking. I therefore can't see the difference here and intend to make this the weightloss effort that works, once and for all.
I have thought long and hard about what I need to do and rather than do a specific diet like that tells me what to eat and what not to eat, I am going to take all the experience of dieting in the last 20 years and take the good and chuck out the bad. I do know that dieting does make you fat - hey look at me, a prime example cause I am now 30 kilos heavier than when I started dieting 20 years ago. My weight has just gone up and up and up even though I start 3-4 diets every single year. The money I have spent I don't even want to think about - my husband would have a coronary if he knew. We could have had 3 world trips I reckon on the money I have spent on diets, diet books, gym memberships (that stopped after 3 months), on diet foot. The lists is endless and what I would like to know is why the hell am I now fatter. Obviously, dieting doesn't work but then on the other hand I have also tried the "no dieting" diet and still ended up heavier than when I started.
Soooo,,,, I know what I should eat and what I shouldn't eat. I am going to concentrate on healthier options for example have a pizza with no cheese instead of with cheese, drink water instead of diet coke, grain breads instead of white with the biggest thing I really know I need to do and that is to reduce my portion sizes. I need to stop eating before I am stuffed and also start (slowly) to exercise (which I hate with a vengence by the way!).
So here goes everybody, today is day one (22nd Jan) and I hope to keep this blog up to date whether it be good or bad news.
Shaz
I have thought long and hard about what I need to do and rather than do a specific diet like that tells me what to eat and what not to eat, I am going to take all the experience of dieting in the last 20 years and take the good and chuck out the bad. I do know that dieting does make you fat - hey look at me, a prime example cause I am now 30 kilos heavier than when I started dieting 20 years ago. My weight has just gone up and up and up even though I start 3-4 diets every single year. The money I have spent I don't even want to think about - my husband would have a coronary if he knew. We could have had 3 world trips I reckon on the money I have spent on diets, diet books, gym memberships (that stopped after 3 months), on diet foot. The lists is endless and what I would like to know is why the hell am I now fatter. Obviously, dieting doesn't work but then on the other hand I have also tried the "no dieting" diet and still ended up heavier than when I started.
Soooo,,,, I know what I should eat and what I shouldn't eat. I am going to concentrate on healthier options for example have a pizza with no cheese instead of with cheese, drink water instead of diet coke, grain breads instead of white with the biggest thing I really know I need to do and that is to reduce my portion sizes. I need to stop eating before I am stuffed and also start (slowly) to exercise (which I hate with a vengence by the way!).
So here goes everybody, today is day one (22nd Jan) and I hope to keep this blog up to date whether it be good or bad news.
Shaz
Saturday, October 18, 2008
NOT LONG TO GO
No, I am not talking about my weightloss goal cause boy do I have a lot to go. I am talking about my youngest son finishing Year 12 in 3 days time. He still has exams to do but as for the daily school drudge - it will be gone. I will be actually able to go to work at whatever time suits me and leave whatever time suits me. I haven't been able to do that for 12 years (or more as his older brother is nearly 21 and I have been the taxi driver for him as well). Where have all the years gone! This is definitely going to be a new era for me and time (at last) to think about me and my life. I have for so many years put my kids before me in so many ways. Now, I am not saying that I will no longer care for them cause that is inbred in me. What I am saying is that they no longer NEED me in the way they use to.
Anyway, apart from that my total weightloss is now 2.1kg. I consider that to be very good over a 6 week period and feel quite proud in being able to achieve that while still eating what I want and when I want. Still counting my points with WW Online and it keeps me on the straight and narrow. Even if I eat 20 points more in a day, I am counting that so I am held accountable and can look back and know that the reason I didn't lose weight that week is due to that and not because of "my metabolism"!!!
I also need to get back to Fernwood gym cause I have been making excuses for the last 2 weeks and know that it needs to become a permanent part of my life. Maybe after Thursday (when I get my wings), I can start making it a priority.
I know I am a bit slack in adding posts but maybe that can improve with a bit more time as well!!
Anyway, apart from that my total weightloss is now 2.1kg. I consider that to be very good over a 6 week period and feel quite proud in being able to achieve that while still eating what I want and when I want. Still counting my points with WW Online and it keeps me on the straight and narrow. Even if I eat 20 points more in a day, I am counting that so I am held accountable and can look back and know that the reason I didn't lose weight that week is due to that and not because of "my metabolism"!!!
I also need to get back to Fernwood gym cause I have been making excuses for the last 2 weeks and know that it needs to become a permanent part of my life. Maybe after Thursday (when I get my wings), I can start making it a priority.
I know I am a bit slack in adding posts but maybe that can improve with a bit more time as well!!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
A week off work
Well had the last week off work as my youngest son needed taxiing (is that a word??) to and from school for his trial VCE exams. God where has the time gone. Anyway, I sort of used that as an excuse to eat a bit more than I normally would and went over my points by 15 for the week! So, when I weighed in on Saturday I was slightly shitting bricks cause I was pretty sure I would have put on. But, I was pleasantly surprised to have stayed the same. I can't grumble with that. Figured I might make a diary of the points I have for a week and whether or not I lost or gained or stayed the same. That might give me an indication on where I go wrong. My problem this week was wine, wine,wine and the things that go with wine - namely salt and vinegar chips..................................................... I was in holiday mode.
Anyway, back to work tomorrow and back to my usual brekkies and lunches and hopefully a loss. I am happy with a .5 loss as I figured if I only lose that every week I can still be 24 kilos lighter in a year....
Watching Australian Idol at the moment singing Abba songs. Must say they are a good bunch of singers this year and some of those Abba songs sounds really really good. There was an advert just on saying that Supernatural is back (fast tracked from the US) and starts again tomorrow night!! Woohoo. Can't wait. Love that show (among others)
Oh well, I must start the school lunch thing for tomorrow and need to cook some chicken breasts on the George Foreman for my youngest.
Daylight savings started this morning so it aint gonna be easy getting up in the morning. Might try and get to bed early I think as well.
Shaz
Anyway, back to work tomorrow and back to my usual brekkies and lunches and hopefully a loss. I am happy with a .5 loss as I figured if I only lose that every week I can still be 24 kilos lighter in a year....
Watching Australian Idol at the moment singing Abba songs. Must say they are a good bunch of singers this year and some of those Abba songs sounds really really good. There was an advert just on saying that Supernatural is back (fast tracked from the US) and starts again tomorrow night!! Woohoo. Can't wait. Love that show (among others)
Oh well, I must start the school lunch thing for tomorrow and need to cook some chicken breasts on the George Foreman for my youngest.
Daylight savings started this morning so it aint gonna be easy getting up in the morning. Might try and get to bed early I think as well.
Shaz
Friday, September 26, 2008
I HAVE A LOSS
I have good news. After I counted my points this week religiously I have lost .4 of a kilo. Might not sound like a heap of weight to lose but believe me that is good for me. I did a quick calculation. If I average a loss of only 1.5 kg every month from now till my 50th birthday (2 years away) I shall have lost 36kgs and be under 80kgs which I haven't been since before having the kids (and my oldest is nearly 21!!). Hey, I can handle that - now I just gotta do it. Once and for all I want this fat gone, gone gone.. And I don't want it back again. Just love the WW forums. Keeping me on the straight and narrow at the moment.
Back to this Blog. I am pretty slack, I know, when I see other peoples blogs with photos and links. I will figure it out soon enough and once I do there will be no going back. I know I need to blog more often as well, I don't think once a week is enough.
Have been slack going to the gym this week. Joined Fernwood bout 4 months ago and have only been to two classes in that time. Keep saying I am gonna try Bodypump, Bodybalance and Studio Cycle but chicken out everytime. I think I am gonna be so unfit and not keep up and get embarassed. I shall find the courage soon enough - maybe just need to lose a couple of more kilos first??? Anyway, I do go on the treadmill, cross training and do the weights but it is getting a bit boring to say the least so need to add a bit more spice I think.
Had a nice breaky this morning (if you like porridge try it):
1/3cup rolled oats (microwave for a couple of minutes with a bit of water)
Add 1/3 cup evaporated skim milk
Add 1 small banana (also like sultanas)
Points: 3.5 with sultanas (1tablespoon) or 4 with the banance - evaporated milk makes it soooo creamy. Also add a tiny bit of splenda to sweeten.
Not sure what I am having for lunch yet but I have chops out for a BBQ tonight. The weather here in Melbourne is so nice this morning.
Shaz
Friday, September 19, 2008
What has happened to this month?
Last post was the 4th September. Can't believe it is now the 20th!! What a slackarse I am..... Well, I do have reason. It has been my 48th birthday, my son's 18th birthday, my brother's 51st birthday AND my co-worker's 32nd birthday ALL in that 2 week period!! Busy, busy busy is all I can say, not to mention an EXPENSIVE month!!!!
Well, have my son's 21st coming up in January but not going to think about that until at least November so I have a couple of months of peace for the time being.
On the weight front. Nothing much there. Well, sort of. Still logging my daily weight on physicsdiet.com but changed from counting calories to counting points (just much much easier). Joined WW online which is an on-line tracker, forums etc but I definitely DO NOT want to go back to weekly meetings with the weekly weigh-ins again. It isn't too hard when it is all online and it takes a couple of seconds to log what I have eaten. Anyway, that was 2 weeks ago and although I lost .8 in the first week, I have put that back on this week so back to square one. Could all be TTOM which is a doosy so I am hoping that it is just a temporary weight increase. All I am worried about is my average weight chart slowly going in the down direction and believe me it is not a straight line by no stretch of the imagination.
Had a really nice lunch - brown rice (90sec quick rice), tuna, chargrilled eggplant, capsicum and artichoke and some shaved parmesan cheese on top. Very tasty. Oh and I topped it off with a handful of peanuts and dried apricots. Still way under points as the vegies I don't even have to count which is a bonus.
Don't think I have mentioned my oldest son having recently lost 36kilos. I am so proud of him. He has kept it off for 2 months now. He is still eating the odd crappy thing but doesn't have half as much of it that he use to. He doesn't believe in counting anything nor weighing and measuring but then he is only 20, a male and never dieted before so it is gonna work good for him.
Don't know what to have for dinner tonight. Normally Sat nights is some sort of takeaway but I want to try and make something just as nice instead. Think I'll going through all my recipe books and check out something different for a change.
By the way, it is nice to see that there is at least one person reading this blog - sorry for being a big slow on the updates as I know what it is like when you get used to checking out blogs and want an update and they haven't done one for a while!!!! I shall definitely be doing an update at least twice a week. I do work full-time, as does my husband, and sometimes the days are just so hectic I don't even logon to a computer at all!! Wish my kids helped out a bit with housework and stuff but it aint ever gonna happen!!!
Anyway, off to check out my recipe books.
Shaz
Well, have my son's 21st coming up in January but not going to think about that until at least November so I have a couple of months of peace for the time being.
On the weight front. Nothing much there. Well, sort of. Still logging my daily weight on physicsdiet.com but changed from counting calories to counting points (just much much easier). Joined WW online which is an on-line tracker, forums etc but I definitely DO NOT want to go back to weekly meetings with the weekly weigh-ins again. It isn't too hard when it is all online and it takes a couple of seconds to log what I have eaten. Anyway, that was 2 weeks ago and although I lost .8 in the first week, I have put that back on this week so back to square one. Could all be TTOM which is a doosy so I am hoping that it is just a temporary weight increase. All I am worried about is my average weight chart slowly going in the down direction and believe me it is not a straight line by no stretch of the imagination.
Had a really nice lunch - brown rice (90sec quick rice), tuna, chargrilled eggplant, capsicum and artichoke and some shaved parmesan cheese on top. Very tasty. Oh and I topped it off with a handful of peanuts and dried apricots. Still way under points as the vegies I don't even have to count which is a bonus.
Don't think I have mentioned my oldest son having recently lost 36kilos. I am so proud of him. He has kept it off for 2 months now. He is still eating the odd crappy thing but doesn't have half as much of it that he use to. He doesn't believe in counting anything nor weighing and measuring but then he is only 20, a male and never dieted before so it is gonna work good for him.
Don't know what to have for dinner tonight. Normally Sat nights is some sort of takeaway but I want to try and make something just as nice instead. Think I'll going through all my recipe books and check out something different for a change.
By the way, it is nice to see that there is at least one person reading this blog - sorry for being a big slow on the updates as I know what it is like when you get used to checking out blogs and want an update and they haven't done one for a while!!!! I shall definitely be doing an update at least twice a week. I do work full-time, as does my husband, and sometimes the days are just so hectic I don't even logon to a computer at all!! Wish my kids helped out a bit with housework and stuff but it aint ever gonna happen!!!
Anyway, off to check out my recipe books.
Shaz
Thursday, September 4, 2008
What's wrong with me
Yesterday's weight - 110.2kg
Today's weight - 112.6kg
Is that for real or what! Friggin hell I can't believe I actually went up by 2.4kg in one damn day... Okay, I know I'm not meant to be worrying about the day to day differences but my god 2.4kg. This is where I get pissed off with everything. I have been dieting now for 20 years. I actually was lying awake in bed last night thinking about all the diets I have done over the years (husband is currently away). I came up with the following:
WeightWatchers - at LEAST 25 times in 20 years - AT LEAST.....
Ultra Lite - once but never again
Jenny Craig - Twice and never lost anything
Gloria Marshall - Twice and never lost anything
Sure Slim - Lost quite a bit but put it all back on
Dietician - Lost a bit but didn't go back - too expensive
Tony Ferguson - twice
and not to mention all the diet books I have bought an eaten my way through..... the list is just endless and here I am even fatter than what I was 20 years ago. You know I think back now and if I was the weight that I was when I started dieting (69kgs) I would be soooooo happy. But, alas I thought I was a fat pig at 69kgs, little did I know that I would put on 40 kilos over the next 20 years by doing the one thing that was meant to help me get skinny.
I think there is definitely something wrong here. Why do I keep doing the one thing that doesn't seem to be working. You know what, I just think that it is my fault and not the diet. I think it is me that just didn't have the willpower to continue on with it. Is this true? Is it really me? Or is it dieting that has done it????? I don't know. I just want to be thinner. I want to get my health back. What is the answer. Anybody have it?? I am listening. Please help. I don't know what to do.
I am again toying with the idea of doing WW again. I keep going back to WW cause I still think that is the most healthiest and easiest to do for life BUT......................... why have I done it 25 times and still fat. It just has to be me.......
I don't know.......
Let me stew on that for a while.
Sharon
Today's weight - 112.6kg
Is that for real or what! Friggin hell I can't believe I actually went up by 2.4kg in one damn day... Okay, I know I'm not meant to be worrying about the day to day differences but my god 2.4kg. This is where I get pissed off with everything. I have been dieting now for 20 years. I actually was lying awake in bed last night thinking about all the diets I have done over the years (husband is currently away). I came up with the following:
WeightWatchers - at LEAST 25 times in 20 years - AT LEAST.....
Ultra Lite - once but never again
Jenny Craig - Twice and never lost anything
Gloria Marshall - Twice and never lost anything
Sure Slim - Lost quite a bit but put it all back on
Dietician - Lost a bit but didn't go back - too expensive
Tony Ferguson - twice
and not to mention all the diet books I have bought an eaten my way through..... the list is just endless and here I am even fatter than what I was 20 years ago. You know I think back now and if I was the weight that I was when I started dieting (69kgs) I would be soooooo happy. But, alas I thought I was a fat pig at 69kgs, little did I know that I would put on 40 kilos over the next 20 years by doing the one thing that was meant to help me get skinny.
I think there is definitely something wrong here. Why do I keep doing the one thing that doesn't seem to be working. You know what, I just think that it is my fault and not the diet. I think it is me that just didn't have the willpower to continue on with it. Is this true? Is it really me? Or is it dieting that has done it????? I don't know. I just want to be thinner. I want to get my health back. What is the answer. Anybody have it?? I am listening. Please help. I don't know what to do.
I am again toying with the idea of doing WW again. I keep going back to WW cause I still think that is the most healthiest and easiest to do for life BUT......................... why have I done it 25 times and still fat. It just has to be me.......
I don't know.......
Let me stew on that for a while.
Sharon
Friday, August 29, 2008
I hate Teenagers
Not much going on the weight front. Have been religiously logging my calories and exercise in Calorieking.com.au and then logging my daily weight into Physicsdiet.com. It is really keeping me on the straight and narrow at the moment cause I just love watching my average weight going down. I can't believe how different it is now weighing when you don't need to worry about the constant up and down. Once you realise that it is normal and it is the average that matters the daily weight fluctuations mean nothing. It is really liberating and I actually enjoy weighing now even if I am up one day. I lost .9 of a kilo in one day on Thurdays weighin but went back up by .3 the next. Overall my average is going down so that is what matters and when you see your graph it is quite exciting. Hopefully I can keep this up (unlike the zillion other weight loss attempts). I really feel that this is my last ditched attempt before I get to the big 50 and I wanted to give myself a couple of years to lose 50 kilos. I know I really won't get another chance after this cause my health is deteriotating having now got high blood pressure that I need tablets for AND high cholesterol that the doctor thinks I am taking tablets for but when I looked them up on the interet and saw all the side affects I didn't fill out the prescription. That was 12 months ago and I would have thought I'd have lost weight by now but here I am 4 kilos heavier than then................ God this is hard.
Anyway, looking at today's title you may be wondering where the teenagers come into all of this. Well as I have 2 teenage boys (20 and 17) they affect my day to day moods quite dramatically. My 17 year old had his year 12 formal last night and although it was to finish at 1am and call us, he was still not home at 4.30am. Apparently he went to a mate's place and decided to stay the night (without so much as a second thought my myself or my husband). He is such a pain in the arse at the moment let me tell you. I can't do anything right and he looks at disgust with me most of the time just for asking a normal question about his day. He refuses to discuss anything and I honestly think he is embarassed of me. He doesn't bring his friends home - ever! Unlike his older brother who's friends practically live here. I don't get them. He upsets me constantly with his apparent hatred and dislike of me. He only talks to me when he wants something.
Anyway, got to go.
Shaz
Anyway, looking at today's title you may be wondering where the teenagers come into all of this. Well as I have 2 teenage boys (20 and 17) they affect my day to day moods quite dramatically. My 17 year old had his year 12 formal last night and although it was to finish at 1am and call us, he was still not home at 4.30am. Apparently he went to a mate's place and decided to stay the night (without so much as a second thought my myself or my husband). He is such a pain in the arse at the moment let me tell you. I can't do anything right and he looks at disgust with me most of the time just for asking a normal question about his day. He refuses to discuss anything and I honestly think he is embarassed of me. He doesn't bring his friends home - ever! Unlike his older brother who's friends practically live here. I don't get them. He upsets me constantly with his apparent hatred and dislike of me. He only talks to me when he wants something.
Anyway, got to go.
Shaz
Friday, August 22, 2008
Day 3 Update
Well here it is 3 days after starting my journey to health and I am a whole .4 of a kilogram lighter. The Physicsdiet.com website uses the Hackers Diet which is a whole new way of looking at things especially weighing yourself. Because you weigh every day and record on the site, it takes an average every 10 days (and records the average weight on a graph for you) it doesn't really matter if it goes up by half a kilo in a day cause the next day it could be right back down again which will all even out in the end. It just makes the weighing thing that whole much easier to handle. Anyway, I am also using calorieking.com.au to record my food and exercise calories and also record that information on the physicsdiet.com chart (along with my daily weight). I just hope this time I can keep it up. The Hackers diet talks about the Eat Watch and why obese people (like myself) don't have the inbuilt Eat Watch that thinner people have (knowing when to eat and when to stop!), so because of that you need to do your own Eat Watch and basically make sure you never go over your allotted number of calories. In the end, they say, it is still all about calories in and calories out..............
Anyway, feeling okay about it so far. Went out to lunch for work yesterday with a bunch of workmates (which was totally free!). Ended up having 2 glasses of wine and a huge turkish "mixed plate" AND some baklava, BUT I did count the calories, didn't have any dinner (at all!) just a cup of coffee and I managed to still stay within my calorie limit. What is good is that I wasn't hungry at all so it was really easy not to eat anything. Felt really good actually cause I would normally have eaten dinner regardless of how full I was, just because it was dinner time.
Going out to dinner tonight to an Italian Restaurant with my other half's family. Have only eaten 300 calories so far so have heaps saved for tonight. I will still pick a lower cal version (ie tomato based sauce etc) but will also have my couple of glasses of wine and a desssert. I want this to be a diet I can stick to for the rest of my life so going out to dinner and having treats all comes into it but instead of going ballistic I shall try to limit the serving sizes. That way I can still eat what I want but within reason. That is my theory anyway and I am sticking to it.
Shaz
Anyway, feeling okay about it so far. Went out to lunch for work yesterday with a bunch of workmates (which was totally free!). Ended up having 2 glasses of wine and a huge turkish "mixed plate" AND some baklava, BUT I did count the calories, didn't have any dinner (at all!) just a cup of coffee and I managed to still stay within my calorie limit. What is good is that I wasn't hungry at all so it was really easy not to eat anything. Felt really good actually cause I would normally have eaten dinner regardless of how full I was, just because it was dinner time.
Going out to dinner tonight to an Italian Restaurant with my other half's family. Have only eaten 300 calories so far so have heaps saved for tonight. I will still pick a lower cal version (ie tomato based sauce etc) but will also have my couple of glasses of wine and a desssert. I want this to be a diet I can stick to for the rest of my life so going out to dinner and having treats all comes into it but instead of going ballistic I shall try to limit the serving sizes. That way I can still eat what I want but within reason. That is my theory anyway and I am sticking to it.
Shaz
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
New Life
Well tonight I have actually started my own blog - don't know how I will go but I am willing to give it a try. Have been thinking about it for a while now but just didn't really think it was going to be this easy. Mind you, it did take me quite a while to work out how to add a photo so don't know if there will be many more of them until I get the hang of this thing!!
Anyway, tomorrow morning I am going to weigh and measure myself - aarrgghhh!!! I do know that this diet thing is going to be the only way I am ever gonna get this weight off me and get healthy. I am approaching 50 and things just gotta change. Found a website "physicsdiet.com" which looks really helpful where I need to log my weight on a daily basis cause it works out an average weight over 10 days and charts that. I also plan to count calories in Calorie King and log those details as well.
My ultimate goal you may ask? I want to get down to 65kilos eventually but if I can be less than 80kg on my 50th birthday (2 and a bit years away) I will be really pleased with that. I have not been under 100 kilos for at least 20 years (notice that is the age of my eldest son!)............. Let me also say that I have been dieting constantly for the last 25 years to 30 years and all I have got out of it is to get fatter and fatter. Why is this time gonna be different you may ask? Well I am asking the same question and really I am not sure but I do know that this is gonna be my last ditched effort otherwise I am gonna end up dead!! If not by a heart attack, stroke then I shall get diabetes and have my limbs chopped off..... If that isn't gonna motivate me then nothing is.
So, I shall put in my weight tomorrow as my new Day 1 to a healthy life.....
Shaz
Anyway, tomorrow morning I am going to weigh and measure myself - aarrgghhh!!! I do know that this diet thing is going to be the only way I am ever gonna get this weight off me and get healthy. I am approaching 50 and things just gotta change. Found a website "physicsdiet.com" which looks really helpful where I need to log my weight on a daily basis cause it works out an average weight over 10 days and charts that. I also plan to count calories in Calorie King and log those details as well.
My ultimate goal you may ask? I want to get down to 65kilos eventually but if I can be less than 80kg on my 50th birthday (2 and a bit years away) I will be really pleased with that. I have not been under 100 kilos for at least 20 years (notice that is the age of my eldest son!)............. Let me also say that I have been dieting constantly for the last 25 years to 30 years and all I have got out of it is to get fatter and fatter. Why is this time gonna be different you may ask? Well I am asking the same question and really I am not sure but I do know that this is gonna be my last ditched effort otherwise I am gonna end up dead!! If not by a heart attack, stroke then I shall get diabetes and have my limbs chopped off..... If that isn't gonna motivate me then nothing is.
So, I shall put in my weight tomorrow as my new Day 1 to a healthy life.....
Shaz
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