I hate Teenagers

Not much going on the weight front. Have been religiously logging my calories and exercise in Calorieking.com.au and then logging my daily weight into Physicsdiet.com. It is really keeping me on the straight and narrow at the moment cause I just love watching my average weight going down. I can't believe how different it is now weighing when you don't need to worry about the constant up and down. Once you realise that it is normal and it is the average that matters the daily weight fluctuations mean nothing. It is really liberating and I actually enjoy weighing now even if I am up one day. I lost .9 of a kilo in one day on Thurdays weighin but went back up by .3 the next. Overall my average is going down so that is what matters and when you see your graph it is quite exciting. Hopefully I can keep this up (unlike the zillion other weight loss attempts). I really feel that this is my last ditched attempt before I get to the big 50 and I wanted to give myself a couple of years to lose 50 kilos. I know I really won't get another chance after this cause my health is deteriotating having now got high blood pressure that I need tablets for AND high cholesterol that the doctor thinks I am taking tablets for but when I looked them up on the interet and saw all the side affects I didn't fill out the prescription. That was 12 months ago and I would have thought I'd have lost weight by now but here I am 4 kilos heavier than then................ God this is hard.

Anyway, looking at today's title you may be wondering where the teenagers come into all of this. Well as I have 2 teenage boys (20 and 17) they affect my day to day moods quite dramatically. My 17 year old had his year 12 formal last night and although it was to finish at 1am and call us, he was still not home at 4.30am. Apparently he went to a mate's place and decided to stay the night (without so much as a second thought my myself or my husband). He is such a pain in the arse at the moment let me tell you. I can't do anything right and he looks at disgust with me most of the time just for asking a normal question about his day. He refuses to discuss anything and I honestly think he is embarassed of me. He doesn't bring his friends home - ever! Unlike his older brother who's friends practically live here. I don't get them. He upsets me constantly with his apparent hatred and dislike of me. He only talks to me when he wants something.

Anyway, got to go.

Shaz

Day 3 Update

Well here it is 3 days after starting my journey to health and I am a whole .4 of a kilogram lighter. The Physicsdiet.com website uses the Hackers Diet which is a whole new way of looking at things especially weighing yourself. Because you weigh every day and record on the site, it takes an average every 10 days (and records the average weight on a graph for you) it doesn't really matter if it goes up by half a kilo in a day cause the next day it could be right back down again which will all even out in the end. It just makes the weighing thing that whole much easier to handle. Anyway, I am also using calorieking.com.au to record my food and exercise calories and also record that information on the physicsdiet.com chart (along with my daily weight). I just hope this time I can keep it up. The Hackers diet talks about the Eat Watch and why obese people (like myself) don't have the inbuilt Eat Watch that thinner people have (knowing when to eat and when to stop!), so because of that you need to do your own Eat Watch and basically make sure you never go over your allotted number of calories. In the end, they say, it is still all about calories in and calories out..............

Anyway, feeling okay about it so far. Went out to lunch for work yesterday with a bunch of workmates (which was totally free!). Ended up having 2 glasses of wine and a huge turkish "mixed plate" AND some baklava, BUT I did count the calories, didn't have any dinner (at all!) just a cup of coffee and I managed to still stay within my calorie limit. What is good is that I wasn't hungry at all so it was really easy not to eat anything. Felt really good actually cause I would normally have eaten dinner regardless of how full I was, just because it was dinner time.

Going out to dinner tonight to an Italian Restaurant with my other half's family. Have only eaten 300 calories so far so have heaps saved for tonight. I will still pick a lower cal version (ie tomato based sauce etc) but will also have my couple of glasses of wine and a desssert. I want this to be a diet I can stick to for the rest of my life so going out to dinner and having treats all comes into it but instead of going ballistic I shall try to limit the serving sizes. That way I can still eat what I want but within reason. That is my theory anyway and I am sticking to it.

Shaz

New Life

Well tonight I have actually started my own blog - don't know how I will go but I am willing to give it a try. Have been thinking about it for a while now but just didn't really think it was going to be this easy. Mind you, it did take me quite a while to work out how to add a photo so don't know if there will be many more of them until I get the hang of this thing!!

Anyway, tomorrow morning I am going to weigh and measure myself - aarrgghhh!!! I do know that this diet thing is going to be the only way I am ever gonna get this weight off me and get healthy. I am approaching 50 and things just gotta change. Found a website "physicsdiet.com" which looks really helpful where I need to log my weight on a daily basis cause it works out an average weight over 10 days and charts that. I also plan to count calories in Calorie King and log those details as well.

My ultimate goal you may ask? I want to get down to 65kilos eventually but if I can be less than 80kg on my 50th birthday (2 and a bit years away) I will be really pleased with that. I have not been under 100 kilos for at least 20 years (notice that is the age of my eldest son!)............. Let me also say that I have been dieting constantly for the last 25 years to 30 years and all I have got out of it is to get fatter and fatter. Why is this time gonna be different you may ask? Well I am asking the same question and really I am not sure but I do know that this is gonna be my last ditched effort otherwise I am gonna end up dead!! If not by a heart attack, stroke then I shall get diabetes and have my limbs chopped off..... If that isn't gonna motivate me then nothing is.

So, I shall put in my weight tomorrow as my new Day 1 to a healthy life.....

Shaz