NOT LONG TO GO

No, I am not talking about my weightloss goal cause boy do I have a lot to go. I am talking about my youngest son finishing Year 12 in 3 days time. He still has exams to do but as for the daily school drudge - it will be gone. I will be actually able to go to work at whatever time suits me and leave whatever time suits me. I haven't been able to do that for 12 years (or more as his older brother is nearly 21 and I have been the taxi driver for him as well). Where have all the years gone! This is definitely going to be a new era for me and time (at last) to think about me and my life. I have for so many years put my kids before me in so many ways. Now, I am not saying that I will no longer care for them cause that is inbred in me. What I am saying is that they no longer NEED me in the way they use to.

Anyway, apart from that my total weightloss is now 2.1kg. I consider that to be very good over a 6 week period and feel quite proud in being able to achieve that while still eating what I want and when I want. Still counting my points with WW Online and it keeps me on the straight and narrow. Even if I eat 20 points more in a day, I am counting that so I am held accountable and can look back and know that the reason I didn't lose weight that week is due to that and not because of "my metabolism"!!!

I also need to get back to Fernwood gym cause I have been making excuses for the last 2 weeks and know that it needs to become a permanent part of my life. Maybe after Thursday (when I get my wings), I can start making it a priority.

I know I am a bit slack in adding posts but maybe that can improve with a bit more time as well!!

A week off work

Well had the last week off work as my youngest son needed taxiing (is that a word??) to and from school for his trial VCE exams. God where has the time gone. Anyway, I sort of used that as an excuse to eat a bit more than I normally would and went over my points by 15 for the week! So, when I weighed in on Saturday I was slightly shitting bricks cause I was pretty sure I would have put on. But, I was pleasantly surprised to have stayed the same. I can't grumble with that. Figured I might make a diary of the points I have for a week and whether or not I lost or gained or stayed the same. That might give me an indication on where I go wrong. My problem this week was wine, wine,wine and the things that go with wine - namely salt and vinegar chips..................................................... I was in holiday mode.

Anyway, back to work tomorrow and back to my usual brekkies and lunches and hopefully a loss. I am happy with a .5 loss as I figured if I only lose that every week I can still be 24 kilos lighter in a year....

Watching Australian Idol at the moment singing Abba songs. Must say they are a good bunch of singers this year and some of those Abba songs sounds really really good. There was an advert just on saying that Supernatural is back (fast tracked from the US) and starts again tomorrow night!! Woohoo. Can't wait. Love that show (among others)

Oh well, I must start the school lunch thing for tomorrow and need to cook some chicken breasts on the George Foreman for my youngest.

Daylight savings started this morning so it aint gonna be easy getting up in the morning. Might try and get to bed early I think as well.

Shaz

I HAVE A LOSS

I have good news. After I counted my points this week religiously I have lost .4 of a kilo. Might not sound like a heap of weight to lose but believe me that is good for me. I did a quick calculation. If I average a loss of only 1.5 kg every month from now till my 50th birthday (2 years away) I shall have lost 36kgs and be under 80kgs which I haven't been since before having the kids (and my oldest is nearly 21!!). Hey, I can handle that - now I just gotta do it. Once and for all I want this fat gone, gone gone.. And I don't want it back again. Just love the WW forums. Keeping me on the straight and narrow at the moment.

Back to this Blog. I am pretty slack, I know, when I see other peoples blogs with photos and links. I will figure it out soon enough and once I do there will be no going back. I know I need to blog more often as well, I don't think once a week is enough.

Have been slack going to the gym this week. Joined Fernwood bout 4 months ago and have only been to two classes in that time. Keep saying I am gonna try Bodypump, Bodybalance and Studio Cycle but chicken out everytime. I think I am gonna be so unfit and not keep up and get embarassed. I shall find the courage soon enough - maybe just need to lose a couple of more kilos first??? Anyway, I do go on the treadmill, cross training and do the weights but it is getting a bit boring to say the least so need to add a bit more spice I think.

Had a nice breaky this morning (if you like porridge try it):

1/3cup rolled oats (microwave for a couple of minutes with a bit of water)

Add 1/3 cup evaporated skim milk

Add 1 small banana (also like sultanas)

Points: 3.5 with sultanas (1tablespoon) or 4 with the banance - evaporated milk makes it soooo creamy. Also add a tiny bit of splenda to sweeten.

Not sure what I am having for lunch yet but I have chops out for a BBQ tonight. The weather here in Melbourne is so nice this morning.

Shaz

What has happened to this month?

Last post was the 4th September. Can't believe it is now the 20th!! What a slackarse I am..... Well, I do have reason. It has been my 48th birthday, my son's 18th birthday, my brother's 51st birthday AND my co-worker's 32nd birthday ALL in that 2 week period!! Busy, busy busy is all I can say, not to mention an EXPENSIVE month!!!!



Well, have my son's 21st coming up in January but not going to think about that until at least November so I have a couple of months of peace for the time being.



On the weight front. Nothing much there. Well, sort of. Still logging my daily weight on physicsdiet.com but changed from counting calories to counting points (just much much easier). Joined WW online which is an on-line tracker, forums etc but I definitely DO NOT want to go back to weekly meetings with the weekly weigh-ins again. It isn't too hard when it is all online and it takes a couple of seconds to log what I have eaten. Anyway, that was 2 weeks ago and although I lost .8 in the first week, I have put that back on this week so back to square one. Could all be TTOM which is a doosy so I am hoping that it is just a temporary weight increase. All I am worried about is my average weight chart slowly going in the down direction and believe me it is not a straight line by no stretch of the imagination.



Had a really nice lunch - brown rice (90sec quick rice), tuna, chargrilled eggplant, capsicum and artichoke and some shaved parmesan cheese on top. Very tasty. Oh and I topped it off with a handful of peanuts and dried apricots. Still way under points as the vegies I don't even have to count which is a bonus.



Don't think I have mentioned my oldest son having recently lost 36kilos. I am so proud of him. He has kept it off for 2 months now. He is still eating the odd crappy thing but doesn't have half as much of it that he use to. He doesn't believe in counting anything nor weighing and measuring but then he is only 20, a male and never dieted before so it is gonna work good for him.



Don't know what to have for dinner tonight. Normally Sat nights is some sort of takeaway but I want to try and make something just as nice instead. Think I'll going through all my recipe books and check out something different for a change.



By the way, it is nice to see that there is at least one person reading this blog - sorry for being a big slow on the updates as I know what it is like when you get used to checking out blogs and want an update and they haven't done one for a while!!!! I shall definitely be doing an update at least twice a week. I do work full-time, as does my husband, and sometimes the days are just so hectic I don't even logon to a computer at all!! Wish my kids helped out a bit with housework and stuff but it aint ever gonna happen!!!



Anyway, off to check out my recipe books.



Shaz

What's wrong with me

Yesterday's weight - 110.2kg
Today's weight - 112.6kg

Is that for real or what! Friggin hell I can't believe I actually went up by 2.4kg in one damn day... Okay, I know I'm not meant to be worrying about the day to day differences but my god 2.4kg. This is where I get pissed off with everything. I have been dieting now for 20 years. I actually was lying awake in bed last night thinking about all the diets I have done over the years (husband is currently away). I came up with the following:

WeightWatchers - at LEAST 25 times in 20 years - AT LEAST.....
Ultra Lite - once but never again
Jenny Craig - Twice and never lost anything
Gloria Marshall - Twice and never lost anything
Sure Slim - Lost quite a bit but put it all back on
Dietician - Lost a bit but didn't go back - too expensive
Tony Ferguson - twice

and not to mention all the diet books I have bought an eaten my way through..... the list is just endless and here I am even fatter than what I was 20 years ago. You know I think back now and if I was the weight that I was when I started dieting (69kgs) I would be soooooo happy. But, alas I thought I was a fat pig at 69kgs, little did I know that I would put on 40 kilos over the next 20 years by doing the one thing that was meant to help me get skinny.

I think there is definitely something wrong here. Why do I keep doing the one thing that doesn't seem to be working. You know what, I just think that it is my fault and not the diet. I think it is me that just didn't have the willpower to continue on with it. Is this true? Is it really me? Or is it dieting that has done it????? I don't know. I just want to be thinner. I want to get my health back. What is the answer. Anybody have it?? I am listening. Please help. I don't know what to do.

I am again toying with the idea of doing WW again. I keep going back to WW cause I still think that is the most healthiest and easiest to do for life BUT......................... why have I done it 25 times and still fat. It just has to be me.......

I don't know.......

Let me stew on that for a while.

Sharon

I hate Teenagers

Not much going on the weight front. Have been religiously logging my calories and exercise in Calorieking.com.au and then logging my daily weight into Physicsdiet.com. It is really keeping me on the straight and narrow at the moment cause I just love watching my average weight going down. I can't believe how different it is now weighing when you don't need to worry about the constant up and down. Once you realise that it is normal and it is the average that matters the daily weight fluctuations mean nothing. It is really liberating and I actually enjoy weighing now even if I am up one day. I lost .9 of a kilo in one day on Thurdays weighin but went back up by .3 the next. Overall my average is going down so that is what matters and when you see your graph it is quite exciting. Hopefully I can keep this up (unlike the zillion other weight loss attempts). I really feel that this is my last ditched attempt before I get to the big 50 and I wanted to give myself a couple of years to lose 50 kilos. I know I really won't get another chance after this cause my health is deteriotating having now got high blood pressure that I need tablets for AND high cholesterol that the doctor thinks I am taking tablets for but when I looked them up on the interet and saw all the side affects I didn't fill out the prescription. That was 12 months ago and I would have thought I'd have lost weight by now but here I am 4 kilos heavier than then................ God this is hard.

Anyway, looking at today's title you may be wondering where the teenagers come into all of this. Well as I have 2 teenage boys (20 and 17) they affect my day to day moods quite dramatically. My 17 year old had his year 12 formal last night and although it was to finish at 1am and call us, he was still not home at 4.30am. Apparently he went to a mate's place and decided to stay the night (without so much as a second thought my myself or my husband). He is such a pain in the arse at the moment let me tell you. I can't do anything right and he looks at disgust with me most of the time just for asking a normal question about his day. He refuses to discuss anything and I honestly think he is embarassed of me. He doesn't bring his friends home - ever! Unlike his older brother who's friends practically live here. I don't get them. He upsets me constantly with his apparent hatred and dislike of me. He only talks to me when he wants something.

Anyway, got to go.

Shaz

Day 3 Update

Well here it is 3 days after starting my journey to health and I am a whole .4 of a kilogram lighter. The Physicsdiet.com website uses the Hackers Diet which is a whole new way of looking at things especially weighing yourself. Because you weigh every day and record on the site, it takes an average every 10 days (and records the average weight on a graph for you) it doesn't really matter if it goes up by half a kilo in a day cause the next day it could be right back down again which will all even out in the end. It just makes the weighing thing that whole much easier to handle. Anyway, I am also using calorieking.com.au to record my food and exercise calories and also record that information on the physicsdiet.com chart (along with my daily weight). I just hope this time I can keep it up. The Hackers diet talks about the Eat Watch and why obese people (like myself) don't have the inbuilt Eat Watch that thinner people have (knowing when to eat and when to stop!), so because of that you need to do your own Eat Watch and basically make sure you never go over your allotted number of calories. In the end, they say, it is still all about calories in and calories out..............

Anyway, feeling okay about it so far. Went out to lunch for work yesterday with a bunch of workmates (which was totally free!). Ended up having 2 glasses of wine and a huge turkish "mixed plate" AND some baklava, BUT I did count the calories, didn't have any dinner (at all!) just a cup of coffee and I managed to still stay within my calorie limit. What is good is that I wasn't hungry at all so it was really easy not to eat anything. Felt really good actually cause I would normally have eaten dinner regardless of how full I was, just because it was dinner time.

Going out to dinner tonight to an Italian Restaurant with my other half's family. Have only eaten 300 calories so far so have heaps saved for tonight. I will still pick a lower cal version (ie tomato based sauce etc) but will also have my couple of glasses of wine and a desssert. I want this to be a diet I can stick to for the rest of my life so going out to dinner and having treats all comes into it but instead of going ballistic I shall try to limit the serving sizes. That way I can still eat what I want but within reason. That is my theory anyway and I am sticking to it.

Shaz

New Life

Well tonight I have actually started my own blog - don't know how I will go but I am willing to give it a try. Have been thinking about it for a while now but just didn't really think it was going to be this easy. Mind you, it did take me quite a while to work out how to add a photo so don't know if there will be many more of them until I get the hang of this thing!!

Anyway, tomorrow morning I am going to weigh and measure myself - aarrgghhh!!! I do know that this diet thing is going to be the only way I am ever gonna get this weight off me and get healthy. I am approaching 50 and things just gotta change. Found a website "physicsdiet.com" which looks really helpful where I need to log my weight on a daily basis cause it works out an average weight over 10 days and charts that. I also plan to count calories in Calorie King and log those details as well.

My ultimate goal you may ask? I want to get down to 65kilos eventually but if I can be less than 80kg on my 50th birthday (2 and a bit years away) I will be really pleased with that. I have not been under 100 kilos for at least 20 years (notice that is the age of my eldest son!)............. Let me also say that I have been dieting constantly for the last 25 years to 30 years and all I have got out of it is to get fatter and fatter. Why is this time gonna be different you may ask? Well I am asking the same question and really I am not sure but I do know that this is gonna be my last ditched effort otherwise I am gonna end up dead!! If not by a heart attack, stroke then I shall get diabetes and have my limbs chopped off..... If that isn't gonna motivate me then nothing is.

So, I shall put in my weight tomorrow as my new Day 1 to a healthy life.....

Shaz