Friday, September 26, 2008

I HAVE A LOSS

I have good news. After I counted my points this week religiously I have lost .4 of a kilo. Might not sound like a heap of weight to lose but believe me that is good for me. I did a quick calculation. If I average a loss of only 1.5 kg every month from now till my 50th birthday (2 years away) I shall have lost 36kgs and be under 80kgs which I haven't been since before having the kids (and my oldest is nearly 21!!). Hey, I can handle that - now I just gotta do it. Once and for all I want this fat gone, gone gone.. And I don't want it back again. Just love the WW forums. Keeping me on the straight and narrow at the moment.

Back to this Blog. I am pretty slack, I know, when I see other peoples blogs with photos and links. I will figure it out soon enough and once I do there will be no going back. I know I need to blog more often as well, I don't think once a week is enough.

Have been slack going to the gym this week. Joined Fernwood bout 4 months ago and have only been to two classes in that time. Keep saying I am gonna try Bodypump, Bodybalance and Studio Cycle but chicken out everytime. I think I am gonna be so unfit and not keep up and get embarassed. I shall find the courage soon enough - maybe just need to lose a couple of more kilos first??? Anyway, I do go on the treadmill, cross training and do the weights but it is getting a bit boring to say the least so need to add a bit more spice I think.

Had a nice breaky this morning (if you like porridge try it):

1/3cup rolled oats (microwave for a couple of minutes with a bit of water)

Add 1/3 cup evaporated skim milk

Add 1 small banana (also like sultanas)

Points: 3.5 with sultanas (1tablespoon) or 4 with the banance - evaporated milk makes it soooo creamy. Also add a tiny bit of splenda to sweeten.

Not sure what I am having for lunch yet but I have chops out for a BBQ tonight. The weather here in Melbourne is so nice this morning.

Shaz

Friday, September 19, 2008

What has happened to this month?

Last post was the 4th September. Can't believe it is now the 20th!! What a slackarse I am..... Well, I do have reason. It has been my 48th birthday, my son's 18th birthday, my brother's 51st birthday AND my co-worker's 32nd birthday ALL in that 2 week period!! Busy, busy busy is all I can say, not to mention an EXPENSIVE month!!!!



Well, have my son's 21st coming up in January but not going to think about that until at least November so I have a couple of months of peace for the time being.



On the weight front. Nothing much there. Well, sort of. Still logging my daily weight on physicsdiet.com but changed from counting calories to counting points (just much much easier). Joined WW online which is an on-line tracker, forums etc but I definitely DO NOT want to go back to weekly meetings with the weekly weigh-ins again. It isn't too hard when it is all online and it takes a couple of seconds to log what I have eaten. Anyway, that was 2 weeks ago and although I lost .8 in the first week, I have put that back on this week so back to square one. Could all be TTOM which is a doosy so I am hoping that it is just a temporary weight increase. All I am worried about is my average weight chart slowly going in the down direction and believe me it is not a straight line by no stretch of the imagination.



Had a really nice lunch - brown rice (90sec quick rice), tuna, chargrilled eggplant, capsicum and artichoke and some shaved parmesan cheese on top. Very tasty. Oh and I topped it off with a handful of peanuts and dried apricots. Still way under points as the vegies I don't even have to count which is a bonus.



Don't think I have mentioned my oldest son having recently lost 36kilos. I am so proud of him. He has kept it off for 2 months now. He is still eating the odd crappy thing but doesn't have half as much of it that he use to. He doesn't believe in counting anything nor weighing and measuring but then he is only 20, a male and never dieted before so it is gonna work good for him.



Don't know what to have for dinner tonight. Normally Sat nights is some sort of takeaway but I want to try and make something just as nice instead. Think I'll going through all my recipe books and check out something different for a change.



By the way, it is nice to see that there is at least one person reading this blog - sorry for being a big slow on the updates as I know what it is like when you get used to checking out blogs and want an update and they haven't done one for a while!!!! I shall definitely be doing an update at least twice a week. I do work full-time, as does my husband, and sometimes the days are just so hectic I don't even logon to a computer at all!! Wish my kids helped out a bit with housework and stuff but it aint ever gonna happen!!!



Anyway, off to check out my recipe books.



Shaz

Thursday, September 4, 2008

What's wrong with me

Yesterday's weight - 110.2kg
Today's weight - 112.6kg

Is that for real or what! Friggin hell I can't believe I actually went up by 2.4kg in one damn day... Okay, I know I'm not meant to be worrying about the day to day differences but my god 2.4kg. This is where I get pissed off with everything. I have been dieting now for 20 years. I actually was lying awake in bed last night thinking about all the diets I have done over the years (husband is currently away). I came up with the following:

WeightWatchers - at LEAST 25 times in 20 years - AT LEAST.....
Ultra Lite - once but never again
Jenny Craig - Twice and never lost anything
Gloria Marshall - Twice and never lost anything
Sure Slim - Lost quite a bit but put it all back on
Dietician - Lost a bit but didn't go back - too expensive
Tony Ferguson - twice

and not to mention all the diet books I have bought an eaten my way through..... the list is just endless and here I am even fatter than what I was 20 years ago. You know I think back now and if I was the weight that I was when I started dieting (69kgs) I would be soooooo happy. But, alas I thought I was a fat pig at 69kgs, little did I know that I would put on 40 kilos over the next 20 years by doing the one thing that was meant to help me get skinny.

I think there is definitely something wrong here. Why do I keep doing the one thing that doesn't seem to be working. You know what, I just think that it is my fault and not the diet. I think it is me that just didn't have the willpower to continue on with it. Is this true? Is it really me? Or is it dieting that has done it????? I don't know. I just want to be thinner. I want to get my health back. What is the answer. Anybody have it?? I am listening. Please help. I don't know what to do.

I am again toying with the idea of doing WW again. I keep going back to WW cause I still think that is the most healthiest and easiest to do for life BUT......................... why have I done it 25 times and still fat. It just has to be me.......

I don't know.......

Let me stew on that for a while.

Sharon