I feel so sad reading my previous posts. In fact it has brought tears to my eyes. What is the damn answer to losing weight, why can't I lose my weight, what is holding me back, what is the answer!!! I am really really at a loss on what to do next. I have tried EVERYTHING, I just don't seem to get anywhere with any of it. Yes hypnosis made me feel good about myself (temporarily anyway) BUT, I did not lose any weight. My weight is now 114.6 - yep. Damn heavier than when I started this blog 2 years ago. How depressing. In my previoius posts I was determined not to be fat and fifty. Well guess what - looks like I will definately be that as there is only 3 months left and I am heavier than when I started. Is that for real or what??? Talk about frustrating. What is the answer everybody??? If it was as easy as counting caloires/points/fat grams/whatever then I should have gotten to my goal weight 15 years ago. I have now officially tried everything.
I have gone through a few of my old books, as I want to try and concentrate on health now rather than weight loss (cause that aint gonna happen!!). I figure if I at least concentre on the healthy aspect of food choices then my insides should be happy even if my outside doesn't look it!! So, anyway, I found one of Dr Cabot's books on my bookshelf and reread it. It is the livercleansing diet. She says that if you have a fatty liver then the only way you are gonna lose weight is if you fix your liver up first. Once you have removed the fat from your liver then your metabolism will be what it once was. Now I do remember when I got this book I only did it for a week cause you couldn't have any milk, cheese or dairy. I found it (at the time) very hard to stick to cause I just hate the taste of soy milk arggghhh.
Anyway, as I am now a bit more desperate than I was when I tried it last time, I went shopping and got rice milk and lite soy milk. There is a lot more variety now which is good. I had some soy milk in my cereal and low and behold it is actually nice now. I think I might be able to do this diet. I might be able to fix my fatty liver (which I have been told I have by a number of naturapaths) and then I can start losing weight.
Dr Cabot says if it is really bad (which surely mine must be), then it could be 3-12 months before I start losing weight but it is what is happening on the inside that I need to concentrate on.
So there you go guys - livercleansing is on!!
BTW I have also joined Contours gym which is really close by and again only doing it for health. I know in the past I have stopped going to gyms if I haven't lost weight within 3 months or so and figure it aint working. I am no longer going to think that way - this is now for life. I am getting too old to be starting to piss fart around with my health. Even if I stay fat if I know my insides are healthy then I could still have a long and happy life.
Heres to the liver!!
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